Dear Friend,
Yesterday, I got the advice that I needed to call you and see how you are doing, but as I don't want to open that door again this is my way to let out my feelings without actually having to talk to you. I forgive you for the choices that you made that affected my life. I forgive you for lying to me for eight monts and letting me find out from a complete stranger all about your lies. I didn't just lose some stupid guy that day, I also lost one of my best friends.
If I did something to you in the past 15 years that we have known each other then I am sorry. You were the one person who I confided in when I was scared, or hurt, or frustrated, or even angry. You were the person who would tell me to let my walls down and to take a chance on a person. To let somone one in. I thought that I was doing that exact thing when I let myself go and let myself risk telling you that I was in Love with you. Stupid me though cause it was just a game to you.
So since you were that person, please tell me what I should do to get past this. Tell me how I trust another person. Tell me how I forget this. I do forgive you, I am sorry about the choices that both you and I made. I wish you nothing the best in life. Good luck in everything that you do and whoever you end up with.
Jenn
