Letter to a Friend

Dear Friend,

Yesterday, I got the advice that I needed to call you and see how you are doing, but as I don't want to open that door again this is my way to let out my feelings without actually having to talk to you. I forgive you for the choices that you made that affected my life.  I forgive you for lying to me for eight monts and letting me find out from a complete stranger all about your lies.  I didn't just lose some stupid guy that day, I also lost one of my best friends. 

If I did something to you in the past 15 years that we have known each other then I am sorry.  You were the one person who I confided in when I was scared, or hurt, or frustrated, or even angry.  You were the person who would tell me to let my walls down and to take a chance on a person.  To let somone one in.  I thought that I was doing that exact thing when I let myself go and let myself risk telling you that I was in Love with you.  Stupid me though cause it was just a game to you.  

So since you were that person, please tell me what I should do to get past this.  Tell me how I trust another person.  Tell me how I forget this.  I do forgive you, I am sorry about the choices that both you and I made.  I wish you nothing the best in life.  Good luck in everything that you do and whoever you end up with.  

Jenn

Its been A While

So it has been a couple of weeks or months since I have last posted a blog. There really isn't that much that is new though.

Unless you count getting to go on vacation three times and one business trip this summer nothing new. Below is a break down of my travel itineraries.

June 13-June 21
1st vacation was to San Fran, Las Vegas, and the Grand Caynon. That is the trip that RiLee, Jill, Maegan, and I go somewhere new every year. The Grand Canyon is just that grand It was so pretty, I am not sure that I will ever understand its magnitude. Here is picture below just to show you how beautiful it is. The coast of California was so amazing, it was just so picturesque. Las Vegas was okay, we just used it as a stopping point between the Grand Caynon and San Fransico, to break up the car ride.

June 30 - July 7

2nd vacation was to see my sister Sam and her family and my sister Kim for the fourth of July. I don't have any pictures of that, but it was a lot of fun. It was nice to see Kim.

It was a ton of fun to get to play soccer with Kenzie, Zack, and Ashlie in the park one day. I was glad to then get to take Taylor, Zack and Ashlie bowling, it was a memory that I will always treasure. It was fun to hang out with Sam, she and I are both so busy so it was fun to just catch up and talk.

July 19-July 24

On to my next trip. My company sent me to Chicago, where our home office to take a training class. I am currently supposed to be studying but chose to update my blog instead. I am trying not to over think the test that I have to take at the end of the class, which is tomorrow.

August 10 - August 15

Finally one last trip and then I am done travelling for the year. I am going on a cruise to the Bahamas in August for a week. It is five day four night cruise, with a stop in a different port each day. I will update more on that at a later date.

I spent the whole time joking that all I was doing was traveling, but in reality I am very grateful for the opportunity that I have been afforded. I love to travel and am looking forward to getting to travel to more places next year. Although I don't think I will make it as close together as this summers was.

My three Younger Sisters

Technically I am the youngest in my family. However, I have three younger cousins, whom are actually more like my younger sisters than my cousins. They are such fun to be around. They are silly and serious and fun. I just wanted to share with you all how much I love them.

Maggie - Is a strong, bright fun loving 21 year old, who is just discovering what the world is still at her feet and that she can do anything she wants. She has a great amount of patience and will make a great teacher one day.

Katie - Is is the life of the party, she is 18 and off to Gettysburg to show them how to have fun all the time. She is the example of someone who can do anything they want if they just put their mind to it. Her love animals, inspires others to want to like them. She is going to make a wonderful vet.

Aly - Is the youngest of her family, but is wise beyond her 16 years. Usually when one is having a problem and you need a sounding board Aly is the one to turn to. She doesn't take sides in anything she just says it like it is. I don't think that she has made up her mind as to what she will be when she grows up, but whatever it is she will be great at it.

I hope that these three know how much I love them and am glad that I get to consider them my "little sisters".

Just a quick note to follow up on the last post, here is my new bookcase. I am actually going to go back to Ikea and get another small one to help continue organizing my room.

Disney Collection

Ok, so for those of you who know me pretty well know that I am a huge Disney fan. I am about to prove this with the following picture of my bookcase full of Disney snowglobes. When I was in high school my mom gave me my first disney collectible, I also get a new Disney Ornament for the christmas tree as well. I digress as to why I am actually writing this blog though, a couple of years ago I bought a book case that I intended to use for books, but in reality I have been using to display my disney collection. Well my great bookcase is falling apart and I am worried that one day it will give away and all my disney stuff will break.

So Shandis and I are off to Ikea today to look and see if we can find a new bookcase.

The things I have Learned in 2008 and Things I hope to Learn in 2009

I spent most of 2008, thinking that my best friend from high school was in love with me and we would be getting married, what I learned instead was that he was married. I also learned that I am tougher than I thought because I didn't let that beat me. I know that my friends have played such a huge part of that. On the days that it could have gotten me down, all I had to do was call them and then go do something silly or crazy fun. There are times when I miss what could have been, but I am learning that it is his loss and not mine.

I learned to trust the holy spirit. That with the spirit on your side you and do anything.

I read that you should spend time with people under 6 and over 70, well I have the under six part covered. My friend Shandis's kids Xavier and Isabella are two of the cutest kids on the planet. It is hard to be around them and not laugh till you cry.

The things that I plan for 2009:
1.) Sky Dive on my birthday
2.) Clean out my room
3.) take a cooking class
4.) work on learning a new language.
5.) Enroll in school in September.

My wish for 2009 is to just be healthy and happy and to enjoy life to the fullest.

Pumpkin Spice Roll

Ok, so when I lived in Idaho with my sister and her family, she taught me how to make a pumpkin spice cake, its really easy it is a spice cake mix and add a can of pumpkin to it. I make it a lot for the guys that I work with cause it can feed a lot of people.

So right before Thanksgiving my friends and I went to an activity at chruch, where we saw a pumpkin spice roll, with cream cheese filling, it was so yummy. So I thought that I could make it for thanksgiving, only that didn't really work out. So I fianlly made it and here is how it turned out. i am very proud of this fact cause it was home made from scratch. No box cake mix was involved.